This will eat at you

It’s easy to envy your dreams,
Especially when you crave in reality for it to happen,
How desperate you feel when you wake up and those dreams grow dim,
How your imagination seems to expand freely the most when your eyes are closed.

It makes sense for people to want to escape for a while,
To be lost,
To be caught in something peculiar,
vague,
mysterious,
Because you cant find any beauty in where you’re living anymore,
It’s sickens you to see the same faces regularly
But when you see unfamiliar faces it enlightens you
You savor that everything seems to be a secret, [shhh]
Intrigued that these details,
this scenery
will be blurry
and will not deepen into your mind
in the morning.
And you wonder if what you were dreaming about had something to do with what you were thinking,
wishing
or
hoping for
before you closed your eyes.

You imagine being apart of him,
When in reality his perspective of you is nothing, [No existence]
Still, a tingle crept inside of you when he embraced you
(He reached out to you)
A rush of excitement scorned you,
You couldn't feel more alive,
and yet numb,
He was in arm reach and you were in control
But that feeling was flushed out of you when your eyes opened.

Everything changes when your eyes are closed.